New blog

http://rougeconfessions.blogspot.com/

Enjoy!

Love Rouge,

P.s This isn't an end to Rouge Details. I will still be posting here.

The Merry Christmas card

I can now say that I’m "ok" with everything that has happened this year. During these past few weeks leading up to Christmas I feel as though everything is finally going my way. I've had more luck than ever before and I'm not sure if I deserve it, but it feels GREAT!

I’m more than content. I don't think I would have ever felt this strong without the ongoing dramas and thresholds that were this year.
You want a recap? Well, ok but just a quick one.

*I Started a Course that I had no idea what was expected in the beginning.

*Meeting someone that I had once met before but never had the likings to ever really get to know him because well..Before this year I was a lot smarter and I guess I knew then not to trust him.

*losing a friend

*Becoming friends with girls whom I would never talk to in high school (but I did want a fresh start so I was up for the challenge.)

*Remembering that I hate fake people and that’s why I never spoke to them. However some can just be sweet and really are harmless.

*Changing my whole perspective on life and careers due to the new people that I had met.

*Trusting the person that I shouldn’t have trusted

*Losing my own trust.

*Getting my trust tread/jumped and walked all over on.

*Realising that that person has no clue and now all I have for him is pity.

* Finding out who my true friends really are. Now this is an important one because you never really know this until you truly have a melt down and someone goes that extra mile for you!!!

* Re-doing two of my subjects only to find that I got a “Pass”. Normally I would be alright with this...but I really put A LOT of effort into these assignments so it was a bit of a let down.

*Finding out that I can be a massive coward when it comes to showing someone how I feel and to cover this up all I do is create more drama for myself and use that as an excuse.

*Gaining my own trust again and then comprehending the fact that I’m my own person with my own ideas. No one else can ever have the same feelings and think the way I do. That is why so many people disagree or don’t support my ideas. They think of everything from their own perspective. I don’t blame them...I do the same. After all it’s all I know.

*I love design, I have a creative mind. That's me. It’s how my brain was made to function. I know that now. And so that is the direction I’m heading in.



With the help of a very important friend and a Christmas card she gave me, I now know what I have to do in 2010.

And just so you know, this card literally brought me to tears. It really meant a lot to me.

This is what the card said:

Dear Rouge,

I hope that even though there were ups and downs, good people and bad people, freedom and stress- that you learnt a lot from this year and you don't regret one bit of it. =)

I know some people can be dickheads, and at the end of the day can let you down... but I will always be here to listen to everything and even be your councillor if you want!! Don't let bad people in the future take you down.

But have a great Christmas sweetie, it was a fun year with you and I’m sure we will create more memories for the future 2010

Love ****

So, as stated in this card my New Year’s Resolution will be to not let anyone let me down...No matter how much I trusted them.

xoxoxo

I wish you all a very Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year!!!!

Love Rouge

Explain to me why??

Ok, so I feel like i've completley lost the purpose of this blog and I can't even think of a good reason as why to keep it anymore?? :S

Can someone remind me?

I don't know, maybe I just need to make some changes to it. That way I might start feeling excited about it again.

xxxx

Gossip Girl

I know it has taken me a while to get into this show but I finally like it. My faviourite character so far would have to be Blair.

I just wanted to leave you with this video that I found on Youtube.



xoxo

How I NOW see the world

I now believe that everyone should try their hardest to be the change that they wish to see in the world. For couple of months now I was involved with someone who didn’t even try to see their best in anything. Of course I didn’t expect him to pretend everything was peachy when it wasn’t. No, that not what I’m saying at all. I just wish that he was more honest and showed a little respect now and then. Respect is something that I would love to see reflected more around the world. Instead to him revenge and deception was his playground in a world that I wanted to feel comfortable in. Of course if I were to be open to him and tell him the reason why I ended it he would deny it and try to shut me out.

I’m not in a time in my life where I would want put up with any ones “Bullshit” as per say, maybe in another lifetime, maybe before when I was too busy to see any light in the world at all. But now, I’m ready to make the right turns and explore everything I have to give back to the world.

Don’t get me wrong, he was a really great person. I did like him for a while after all and I still do. I just don’t want to be another pawn in one of his little games.

In a world that I want to compromise in and try my hardest to be ever so happy in, I wish all the best to him and everyone else who reads this blog! After all, we must try and make the world easier for one another.

I am back!

I hope that you will have the heart to welcome me back into the blogging world. I'm soo sorry i've been away for soo long. In fact I thought I would never come back. I was going through a couple of tough times and I didn't want to bore you with all my troubles.

Recently, I decided to have a read through my old posts and I never realised how much anger I was enflicting out to all my followers. My last couple of posts were full of soo much hurt and anger and for that I appologise. I am back and I now see a new light.

I hope we can start fresh!! I want to show you all the good in my life as well as all the heartbreak. I want to explore all the wonders of life and I want to take you on that journey with me!

Afterall, I am no longer 18 and I have grown to learn soo much since my last couple of posts.

So, for the next couple of days as an appology from me to you, I urge you to make yourself a cup of coffee/hot tea and sit back and relax as I feed to you all the days of my life.

Rouge

xxx

Déjà vu all over again...

I tried to avoid talking to you about it because I knew we would just end up back where we started.

You insisted that we should talk about it. You said I was just trying to find an excuse. I honestly don’t believe that I am the problem.

So here we are again!!! Not sure if it’s going to be any different.


Sincerely,


Rouge